Parachute

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall (down)
Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
Won't tell anybody Won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall They want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,I won't fall out of loveI
'll fall into you I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

ignorance

Somehow, i know that when i am in pain not even the closest would be there. it all voice down to the creator, the sustainer and the one who has power over All.

StyleIslam.com

I Truly Believe so.

i especially cannot stand people who disregard their

own mothers just so to blend in. What more if they claim themselves as muslims. sigh.

every time i feel like giving up, the faces of people who looked down upon my imperfections appears. its like a reflex. the sunburnt lips twins are especially distinct in my head. Thank you for being my source of motivation

survey tabulations

That person up there is the angel i met in life who is always there for me.

so basically today, school was alright. yeah just tired. and getting floods of texts from wolfie regarding F's Available job spots for him.

and so i had to finish up my survey for tabulation for F&N and fuck it,

some people take it lightly. for Christ sake its for O levels fucking noobs. if you fucking dont wanna do it just fucking say no and dont give me fucking answers that dont make

fucking sense. yeah maybe they make sense to your dense brains! Apparently, i take my education seriously unlike you fucktards. To hell with you and i pray your children wont take after your fucking fucked up attitude. run along now little brats. fucking to hell with you fucking bitches. _|_

basically school after that was fine, had a joy of time with my babes. love all of you to bits and pieces.

-monsie

Zombiefied

Since Friday,

Shanny had been treating me lunch.

Friday, We Had Popeye's and today we had Burger King.

I just had a Cheeseburger today though bestest kept insisting that i have some of her fries too.

Its very nice to have someone in your life who really cares so much about you, after your family.

It feels alright for me to spent money on shanny, but it feel strange if she spends her money on me :(

From tonight on, i Vow, to not eat out anymore. at least if i want to, i will buy my own food home.

Shanny is fast asleep now. And i know i ought to do the same. I guess i wont be able to turn in that early tonight rendered by the lost of F&N files. _|_

Sometimes, i feel that i am forced to be independent on my own. and nobody in this house gives a damn about my well being. especially annoying younger brothers. i wish i never had them in my life. they are so full of themselves. Umi has been very occupied with her work recently, i guess i just have to get used to it.

I hope things get better. School wise and Home.

Im tolerating with everyone's expectations of me. I Wish there was somebody in my life who can be that someone that is always there to hear me and will know if something is wrong. Who will know when i say "im fine" that actually, deep down there is something bothering me, i used to have her in my life. but right now, even though she is still here, things are not quite the same,

nonetheless, i guess i ought to be thankful for nikita for always being there for me,

Goodnight fellow bloggers,

God Bless Us All

-Monsie

BurgerKing :D

Bahasa Melayuku

Hidupku Upama Ribut Taufan Di Hari Kelak

:(

ouch

My left arm hurts :(

too much typing of coursework and karangan and comprehension. :(

i cant write anymore cos my dominant arm hurts :(

i wish im right handed now. :(

Someone please massage my arm :(

_|_

I have no idea that my mum brought up a black sheep

im so upset with your Self centered attitude!

Why dont you fill your dense brain with EDUCATION?

He deleted my whole folder on my laptop!

Its filled with O Level F&N Stuff idiot!

ARGH! now i have to re-do everything again!

Younger Brothers Can Be Fucking Ruthless!

Yet Another Year Growing Old Together

Birthday Babe ^^

Happy 17th Birthday NusterArchibald!
I Hope you had lotsa fun during your surprise party like we did.
and i hope you enjoyed the small birthday tribute surprise video!

So, updates on the party! the cake turn out amazingly delicious. its handmade by the way. hahai baked the butter cake and eymacine decorated it! yay!



Seoul Garden was amazing, because apparently everyone was being very caring.
Eymacine was superbly motherly. ^^Michie cooked veggies for us. haha
and Feb, Nuster and myself were just being pampered. We ate what Eymacine and Michie cooked for us!



Then, we walked down to town with balloons and had a mini "Town party" took lotsa pictures and all of us stayed for sunset, ^^
Basically, although some things didint turn out the way i planned them to be,


im glad that there were small imperfections that made it perfect.

Honey, i hope you enjoyed your surprise party!!

^^

with love,
M


p.s the party was themed black and grey ^^

My Soul Sister

My Vampire has turned 17 *claps*
Im finally done with the birthday tribute video and its up on FB ^^
Tomorrow is Vampire's Mini Party!
I Hope it goes well. i have planned hard for this
The clique Helped out alot too.
I have a feeling that by the time the party is over, i will be sooooo tired. hehe

STAY TUNED. I MUST SAY, THIS IS THE FIRST PARTY I PLANNED OUT ALL THE SPECIFICS. HEHEHE

a fraction of hate and a whole of confusion

if there was enough hate in this world, i would have already built a trench that would lead me to the Bermuda Triangle.

I have no idea what to say. I guess the right word to use right now is ''Disappointment''.
I am extremely disappointed in you.
But you will never know will you?


I hope things work out for you. God bless you. Im sick of being taken advantaged of.
Im tired. Im tired of everything. I should filter away everything that stops me from doing my best. And im sorry, you are the salt in my solution that needs to be distilled away.


Thank you bestest for always being there for me.


-monsie

Thank You

Why didnt you slap me when you had the chance to? Why dint you just bash me up for every wrong i've done onto you?

ThanK you for speaking the truth

idealogy

and so march holidays are spent with 8 solid hours of malay class every other day for 5 days. At least i get a break on saturday and sunday off to Ain society's membership launch! Yayyeee! Cant wait to catch up with everyone.

Yes and we all are extremely tired. The El Nino is not exactly helping is it?

Im alright, just a little tired balancing party works, school and family.


I miss sissy tons.


Yasmeen is coming back today! Whooo!
I miss her so much! :D
Im updating via my phone :P

Alright im off to sleep. Goodnight world.

Black bats and VampireHearts,
Monsie

P.S i miss it when zeeq says that.

Hail Storms and Icy Winds

Its all gone sissy,

i cant possibly search you at every corner of the world.

You can feel when someone you hold close to your heart is slipping away, little by little. It’s when the mere thought of losing a friend can bring you to tears almost instantly. The pain you are beginning to feel can crush your entire heart. Yet everything that you try to do to solve the problems only push them further and further away from you. When the only chance of getting back to the way things were in the beginning is to hope this person realized what they may be losing.

To JC

Its really hard to imagine that you actually said all those things.

You will never know what i actually feel deep down on the inside.

I hope you feel better now after flaring up at me.

P.S I cant help but feel disappointed that you found someone else. Im no longer that important senior in your life anymore. I hope things work out for you. You may leave now.

The only reason why people leave in my life is because they can no longer find any reasons to stay.

i have to admit, im really hard to please. So generically, i lose friends at the rate of 3 every 30days. Yes, this is life (Y) -.-

Situations

Maybe People Just Leave Because

They Cant Find Anymore Reasons To Stay

Sup Dawg?

Chemistry was pure awesome, mols, i conqured you (finally)

Maths, my words of endearment are like unwritten sums to you :P

ahh, this sudden vibe of education is taking it's toll on me.

i shall be a globalized student, living in a globalized world and aiming for Globalization. Muahaahahahahah!!

I pretty much feel that some adults, behave like children. and there is no wonder that thier children turn out that way. Such a pity to have relations to them. Its a nightmare for you dearest auntie, think about it seriously, i doubt neither of your children will take good care of you when you are older. What kinda example are you setting for your children? What kinda values are you teaching them? shame on you. Status? what status? you deserve no respect if you classify yourself into a caste system you entirely created for yourself. Wealth? What wealth? Allah SWT is capable of snatching everything away in a matter of seconds.

You are blessed with good wealth. Its a responsibilty for you. For you to give to the poor. Do you even believe in Islam? Hopefully Allah SWT will wake you up from this delusion you created for yourself.

And your children? Its such a pity that you allow them to control you, to teach you what to do. Dearest auntie, i do know that deep down you arent like that. you arent this horrible person. I refuse to believe so.

And to the other auntie, stop adding salt to the wounds of others, rendered by you "adding oil to the fire" act. Slowly, your children will learn these from you subconciously and they will take after you. what a shame.

Mummy, be strong, all the 5 of us are here for you no matter what. Through times we refused to run errands for you to times we baked that birthday cake for you (giggles)

Bringing us up 10 years ago wasnt easy, i know but i have to say that you thought us well and that we are all thought and moulded to the right path. Though each of us are not perfect, misbehaving through our teenagehood, you never did gave up on us. Your love for us is incredible, Your strength is remarkable.

Mummy, as we all grow older, we will all take good care of you, we will all keep a look out. No one can hurt us. No one will ever take advantage of you. Life will be better i promise. i will study extremely hard and get that scholorship to pay off your debts and we all can live happily ever after. Your sacrifices for us left heartprints in all of us. And we will never ever forsake that.

Dear dad, 10 years have gone now, all so quickly, we are all grown up, i hope we have done you proud. we are all slowly trying. trying our hardest to lighten the pain, the punishment. we are trying very hard to light up your grave. I hope you have been doing well. though i did not have much time to know you so well, i do know that you are a great man. and you will always be the invisible man in my life that i will forever love.

May Allah SWT bless us all,

strengthen our faith in him

so that we can do whats right

though the wrong is tempting.

Amin.

-Monsie