The Sweetest

GothicMin,
i should say, is my best friend,
heh, although we arent that close,
everytime, when i needed help,
SHE IS ALWAYS THERE

Thank You sweetest ;)
we both have things in common,
heheh,
oh we are so obsessed with hair :D

MIN MIN MIN,
WHAT WILL I DO WITHOUT YOU?

-Monsie

Refined Poignancy

Impulse

Ah yes, in a moment,
last night, i was at my wits, my heart was pounding against my chest,
i was so RIDICULOUS to allow that to hurt me.

But i shall take that as an IKTIBAR,
In a moment of impulse,
i met the two most beautiful people in the world.
2 complete strangers, took the time to listen to my heart,
Thank you very much, really,
The World will be a better place to live in if everyone were like you.
Gosh and they are such a sweet couple. ;D

InsyAllah, Allah S.W.T will shower his blessings upon you for showing compassion and care for the once in need, for extending an arm when i needed it.

Mona and Syafiq,

The 2 Most beautiful people in the world (after Mummy) ;D




Ah, today i had a call from ODZY, also he made me feel better, for listening to me whine over the phone about two buses splashing me wet :(

Thank You Bad Ass Clan,
I Black You All So Much,



Darla, welcome home :)

-Monsie

This Is the part Where I Curl Up In Darkness And Die

I cant believe i Missed you,
if only i ran faster,
if only i called a cab faster,
If only

6 more days
144 hours
8640 mins
518400 secs

And i will give you every waking moment,
for now, im crawling back into the darkness,
into the unknown where the only beings i see,
is myself,
my reflection,
my company,

for i want to be in complete SOLITUDE

because without you, i see no point communicating,
i plan to drag myself out of bed every morning,
not make myself up anyway,
dont comb my hair,
everyone will be able to see the puffy eyes rendered by the tears i plan to shed every night,
everyone will see,
but not you,
never will you know the pain that you will put me through, i will never let you see,
i will facade it with a smile.


why cant you see?
my life will suck without you.

darla, take good care,
-Monsie

ONE'S PERSON OPINION DOESNT CHANGE THE WAY I PERCIEVE MYSELF.
IT TAKES SO MUCH MORE FOR ME TO BE PUT DOWN.
YOUR OPINION DOESNT MATTER BECAUSE ITS MY LIFE, I CHOOSE MY WAYS, AT THE END OF THE DAY, I TAKE CONSEQUENCES FOR MY DECISION,

I COULDNT CARELESS OF WHAT YOU THINK OF ME BECAUSE ITS CLEARLY
JEALOUSY REARING IT'S UGLY HEAD

BECAUSE I KNOW WHERE YOUR PERCEPTIONS COME FROM, I COULDNT CARE LESS

I AM HUMAN, I HAVE MY FAIR SHARE OF BLACK AND WHITE,

IF YOU DONT LIKE ME THEN THATS YOUR PROBLEM

MY LIFE DOESNT REVOLVE AROUND PEOPLE'S OPINIONS OF ME,

BECAUSE

IN THIS GROUND, I TAKE ROOT AND GROW

-MONSIE ^^v

Moderation

Ah yesyes,
The Band is alomost done :D

Priorities, cant get it right with the hectic heat of holidays,
Skate, mates, hair, Work, Dance, Gen-Y
Its fine i should be ok.

yesyes band gig :DDDDD

I am awaiting your return zeeqMonster, :)
Life has never been better :D

-monsie

My Heart Pours Out

Yes The Above are the People Who i truly miss,

Friends

So yes, saturday yesterday,
went over to crescent Girls for some PBMC thingy and Odza came though he was late (again)
then we went down to city hall to grab a bite but nah, we ended up waiting, first Odza's Twin came, uhuh walked around citylink and bumped into NINA :D OMGoth, i love her eye make up,
and then all the three of us waited for Eshia and the rest to come, and we spotted, ugly cosplayers, ha, though i loved the wigs, hahaha,
and awwww,, eshia came, along with ladyscene, tyzz, and some new people, and yes, they complimented the way i dress and the blood red lipstick made ladyscene scream :)

ah yes, saturdays are lovely, (Y)

Sunday was better,
headed out with family, though had lil arguments here and there, haha
traveled around in aunt's car :DDD
Family, where my heart is.


Monday, my plans?
In the morning im heading to work, then im going to BBE to do some preparations for the upcoming Salam muhibbah cum recruitment drive :D
and then im meeting bestest before she fly off, :(


Yes, i cant wait for FUTSAL this thursday!! WHOOO HOOO this is the life!!

P.S I LOVE MY EW HAIR :D

wishes

I wished i had the ability to withstand myself, although i know everyone is related, i wished i have the ability to change that, somehow. im a sagi, and i am proud of it for i have aquaries and cancer traits too for the values and home i grow up in.


I went out to montfort today, Gothicmin and SHA couldnt make it,

pfft, it was really fun and shane was as per usual; photogenic and sweet. i took lotsa pictures of her, i left my cable at work :( and i have to edit it some other day, sigh sigh sigh, MET ODZA today, hahahahhahahaaahaah :D






So Someone aggravated my tolerence that i had to search for ZEEQY, Thank you Zeeqy, Zeeqy gave the best advice anyone can ever give,



SO they are all connected, so they think i am gonna feel threatened with her return, so you think you can pursue your lie further? So you think that you can show people, texts that i sent you Donkey years ago just to gain sides, how old are you again? Start acting your age. Why didnt you say anything when i confronted you? Because you were taken aback? because you are afraid.


COWARDS. Thats what all of you are, if the whole group has to be torn apart, NONE of you can stand alone. So stop acting like a big deal because I AM NOT SHAKEN. Get that?

Stop picking on people in particular for their weakness, Just because one person in the group has a problem with this particular person, it doesnt mean that all of you have to start hating her. yes, you all have no backbones. a CLICHE NORM. thats what all of you are.

In this fast moving world, it is hard to find people who stand on thier ground no matter what but im glad did find someone, who with my help, develop deeper intellectually. (L)


Shane, No matter what, you ought to know that i can never ever let you go for we both have grown deeper in friendship and love. i love you alot like my twin sister who knows so much about me and knows just what exactly i am thinking.


-Monsie

Intelligence

I think the basic thing that is lacking in everyone Is RESPECT.
pfft,

anyone has anything intelligent to say?

i am a bat,


Elffee, Yesyes, i am ignoring.

everytime i check on updates between my HXC friends, most definately, Fir will be fighting with F, or e sean, and then Khai will start interluding, and Allly will take sides. pfft, -_-


Anyway, Bad Ass Clan is the best, never fought, ok maybe i fought but they will take time off for they know im naiive. hahah

Anyway thank you Zacky very much for talking to Sara,



Yesyes holidays are so tight! i love having something to do,


Monsie, i am a BAT

hahahaahah

-Monsie

Smokey

Hello world,

Today, Shai texted, shared with me some personal problems, but i constantly remind her that we are only allowed 30 Mins to gossip each day. Yesyes, so i hope you have a safe journey to malaysia and fatty dont eat too much, else i shall add a BOM BOM behind the fatty. D:


Mini MonsterBoy Constantly is texting me, Gosh, dont you understand? Dont you get the message? Im Upset With You, Stop ASking, D:


Yesyes My Gothic Best friend will finally be able to hear from me now that im not busy with Ns. hahaha, Cant wait for our late night phonecalls and you going for manicures and we getting fruit juices and shopping!!!


I am Going for Gee's Carnival, If mummy allows, im sure she will, its for a good cause :D


MAC.MAC.MAC.MAC.MAC.MAC.MAC.MAC.MAC



I miss Bestest bestest bestest, we have so much in common and i know her so much, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yes holidays are drifting our friendship apart :(



Elfeee is starting to annoy me, GOTH! he is so EGOCENTRIC!!


Lotsa Bats,
Monsie
P.S
Zeeqy, Holidays are always meant for us to catch up, but i guess you are too far away.
I miss your ruffled laughter

Finally the last day of school.
Im really annoyed with A particular friend.
Friends do fight. Its normal. I have patience, they went overboard. I choose to ignore, she chose to make it big by posting it on FB. Excuse me missy, cant you see, i cant be fucking bothered with our fights because its INSIGNIFICANT get that? Because our friendship is worth saving. I guess you chose to be totally oblivious to all my sacrifices for you, So who is the FAKE one now?
Maybe its not the issue of pretence, maybe you are just too pushy


Ah whatever, anyway, zacky called to remind me about Seth’s party, i dint even asked mum, i dont plan to go either. Holidays are here, its time to have my mini home school, hangouts and volunteering sessions :D yesyes give us Big projects to handle :)

Im gonna get my hair done on Monday J sounds cool to me,

Elfee, sigh, i really wish God were to help him in somewhere and if it really a blessing for me to be in His life to help him, then Dear God, show me. I will help you Elfee if you start by helping yourself, i will be a friend, the one your mum has been asking you to find. FRIENDS, NOT MORE THAN THAT :)


-Monsie

Smokey Babe

i want a set of manic panic!!




Elfee, his name is Elfee. Annoying Zoro -__-
Yah thanks for everything uh. You are one white person
Stupid arabs. hahhh. but you are so cute really.
i have never met someone so "cultured" like you



Shane... gosh... hahah your plasma never fails to make me laugh...
And your little clumsiness and akwardness, Gosh, hehe haha



Everyone's patience has limits. get that? you went overboard this time Flat hair.
You are immature and childish. Why wont you confront me? why do you talk about me?
When i questioned you today, why were you afraid to answer huh? Admit it, flat hair, you are afraid of me. You know what im capable of. of course you do, because your ex, just recieved it havent he? Oh and watch your step, else you might fall and end up in akward angles D:





Holidays are finally here! cant wait for my "smokey" eye makeup. heheeeh

MAC.. :DD

and im cutting my hair short with hot pink highlights. I am gonna love this so much! muacks!


-Monsie

P.S i want a set of immortal perfumes but they dont ship it to singapore. :( Sucka

Boo You

Yes Yes, This is the part of the time where everyone starts to annoy me,
Yes, i am ignoring you 2 so stop trying. Thanks, if there is one thing i hate the most in this world, It would be people Trying to TEACH ONE’S GRANDMA TO SUCK EGGS. Yes whatever the cause, you both need to reflect on yourself.

To you, i know its a great achievement for a nerd like you to transform into a “bad girl” so yeah. Congrats yea, i know you too well, Stop getting all jealous about me to start bitching. Oh then again, start talking about me, you are making me famous ^^V

Ah if there is one person in the world who is pathetic, it would be POSERS.

Enough said.....


Ahhh, have been hearing alot from shai. Sigh, pity him. I dont know what to.

Bestest is not gonna talk to me if i text Rezz.. haha. Yes i know deep down she is jealous D:

Yes,
I SHALL STAND MY ROOT AND NOT GET DRIFTED AWAY BY TEMPTATIONS.


Nonetheless, hello world

-Monsie

P.S His name is ELFEE :D

Today was awe.. D:

Things Happened in school, annoyed yes. People brag about themselves. Bragging for the wrong reasons. Haha. And the best part, they are my friends. Ohhh, stealing the limelight is being such a bixch. As per usaul a certain someone just believes that being in “the scene” is her thing. Oh Gawd, Backstabbers. Whatever, I aint got time for people who feels proud puking around. If there is one thing for sure, I wont be proud dressing up like a vixen. Ok, go brag to the whole world alright. Hell yeah, you will be the top coolest kid. Thats what you want anyway flat hair.
-.-

Moving on to something much more significant. Had lunch with bestest before heading to work. Hah. Heard something really funnyy

*phone rings*
Y: Heloo Ain Society
Caller: Hi Can i speak to mr Bin please?
Y: Excuse me, i think you got the wrong number.
Caller : Oh, sorr Mr Othman BIN Mohammed
Y: Oh he isnt here.
Caller: ok bye.
*puts down phone*
*the whole office was filled with laughter*


Haha. Anyway, Min im so sorry about wishing you late, Sorry hons. I feel superbly horrid. Zeeqy, ah, i can smell you.. like a vampy..


Gotta run, my life awaits.

P.S Dont Probe Me Further, You dont want Me To turn Nasty On You,

Odza Called and asked if i wanted dinner, he could send some food over because he is at my fav fishball noodle stall. aww, what a friend, but i said no anyways because i had chicken rice with bestest.

If there is one thing right now that i could ask for, I ask that my brotherhood with nero will get tighter. Jus Cos i know that zeeqy wont be there, Nero will be the best. :)


-Monsie