This Is the part Where I Curl Up In Darkness And Die

I cant believe i Missed you,
if only i ran faster,
if only i called a cab faster,
If only

6 more days
144 hours
8640 mins
518400 secs

And i will give you every waking moment,
for now, im crawling back into the darkness,
into the unknown where the only beings i see,
is myself,
my reflection,
my company,

for i want to be in complete SOLITUDE

because without you, i see no point communicating,
i plan to drag myself out of bed every morning,
not make myself up anyway,
dont comb my hair,
everyone will be able to see the puffy eyes rendered by the tears i plan to shed every night,
everyone will see,
but not you,
never will you know the pain that you will put me through, i will never let you see,
i will facade it with a smile.


why cant you see?
my life will suck without you.

darla, take good care,
-Monsie