When Death Comes Knocking

Hard to Imagine. Visualizing God's Creation being weak and vulnerable. The People Who We looked up to as mighty, is nothing compared to His powers and Capabilities.

At the End Of The day,

I shall Be Afraid Of Nothing But Him.

Because


IM NOT AFRAID IM NOT AFRAID, NOTHING TOUCHES ME, IM A WALKING RAZOR BLADE.

-Monsie

And To Others, Use your brains to think

Enough is enough you animal!!

I am sick of you.
stop trying to ruin anyone's relationship and friendship.
Stop influencing others to think like you.

i know who you are. stop it.
stop provoking me.
You are heartless.
I hate your attitude.

EVEN DOGS HAVE FEELINGS.


IF YOU ARE SO BRAVE THEN WHY WOULDNT YOU REPLY MY TEXTS.

BECAUSE YOU ARE A COWARD!

ADMIT IT, YOU CANT STAND ALONE.

-Monsie

I Wanna Learn To Be Just Like You

You thought me things i should never know

-Monsie

Enough Monsie

i wished i didnt have to click all those links.
I wished i never knew what i meant to you.
Its hard, you left.
You wanted it.
Never did ask how i felt.
What was i to do?
How Can you be so heartless?


Enough. You started smoking again. why? you turned into someone else.
Why? Because of what i did? I dont know how to face you no more, I dont wish to see you because i know i will end up looking away. I cant do it no more.

ENOUGH MONSIE ENOUGH!




MonsterZir Bubbled me! :( Thanks, bestie. -__-

ALL I GOT TO SAY IS THAT I LOVE KYLE


KYLE.KYLE.KYLE.KYLE.KYLE.KYLE.


:DDDDDDDDD


N LEVELS!!! I CANT WAIT!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA


I AM GONNA CONQUER YOU !!!!!

-mONSIE

I wanna take Pure Chemistry

HiHiHiHiHiHiHi!

I have To say That I Am VERY PROUD OF NURUL NADHIRAH BTE MOHD HARUN FOR IMPROVING SO MUCH FOR HER CHEMISTRY, PHYSICS, GEOGRAPHY and SOCIAL STUDIES!!!.

HOWEVER, YOU STILL GOTTA WORK HARD FOR YOUR OTHER SUBJECTS. DONT WORRY, WE PROMISED :DDDDDDD

LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU :DDDDD


Like WHOA, I passed English With Flying Colours D:

I got a Grade 3 For Malay :D

I Passed Chemistry With Bright Colours Grade 1!! Thanks to biology, it pulled down my combined science marks drastically!!! ARGH!! now, im just a normal person. :(

Social Studies And Geography I Failed But Thanks To My Tuition with kak Filzah I have Improved ALOT :))

And maths, i failed! ITE MAN!
D:

Its ok, i still have time, i know where are my weaknesses im gonna work on it!!!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDD


I can feel The Adrenaline IN Me!! :DDDD


And To you, ok wait, you arent even worth to MENTION HERE, shameless Animal!



Monsie Monsie Monsie, I am not gonna give up Magic YET!!

ZEEQMONSTER, YOU MUST BE REALLY PROUD OF ME :D

-Monsie

The Best Days Is When Friendship Grows Closer

The best Days Is When The Usual Routine Of Fighting And Arguing Revolves Into Laughters

The Best Days is Just Striving hard Together

CHEMISTRY TOMORROW!
Remember OUR BET!
hehehehe
-Monsie

Funny how arguments can bring us together. :)

I shall be the protector


-Monsie

I am Lost

I need To feel Safe Again

What makes you?

School has been really tiring.
Commitments, what not.
Ramadhan, Blessing.


A shoutout to God " Thank you God for putting me through the test of patience today"






Where are you off to? why cant you tell me? what if you change into someone i dont like. please tell me, make me prepared. Please, i dont want to be surprised beyond my heart can take,


Why are you scared?


There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone






If im the freak, then what makes you?

-Monsie

What makes you?

I remembered This Photo Clearly, It has been with us ever since Dad was around,

















All That Im Looking For In The Blessed Month, Is to Bring Myself Closer to the creator and be blessed with the knowledge of his words, I am starting to feel excited for Darul Arqam Youth Classes (DAYS) On sunday. :) Masyallah, The Gift Of Ramadhan, :D
























P.S: Kyle Is a Busy Person

Pet Society in the rain :D

Her name Is MONSIE JR D: haha

I Miss You

The Best Damn Thing

Half with geek

Anyway going back to where i am in life. D:

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Scream scream at me.

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Why shake us further?
Why cant you leave us all alone?
What the Fuck is your problem missy!
I aint afraid of your retarded laughter and your spastic faces, you dont shake me Two face!


Your parents must be SO ashamed of you. Such a pity.

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What Is best for us, is to forget about them, its what they deserve. I will mould your every bit, develop your character like how i installed the confidence in you and mould it to perfection. I do want the best in you. You are worth more than you think you are. You are worth more. And i am going to aid you, in finding that worth. Ani Ohev Okhta



-Monsie

Do you ever notice that the school canteen's return area for cutleries spells "cold bevarage" wrongly haha

It all voice down to this.

The Girls in this green building CAN NEVER shut their pipeholes.
Even the teacher too! uh please be considerate, it doesnt matter now does it? because prelims are ending soon,


It sucks ultimately. I know that she will return again. Why does she has to shake us.
I am always her victim. I hate you, why cant you just leave me alone. Fuck You straight to Hell!!

P.S I know that you dont have the time

-Monsie

I Cant Put My Heart On Something Im Not Good At.

Tired

Lets just face it.

I am exhausted. Clearly we can see that the dudettes in our green building arent considerate. Please, just shut your Goddamn Pipeholes for a minute or 2! And, i hope your dog dies. Kids..

People proclaiming to be "gifted" with superpowers are making me sick. If you are so gifted, then why cant you see that your dearest jerky boyfriend is cheating on you, please, im not ignorant,

Both of you deserve each other, buncha liars. OH dont tell me you got beaten up by skinheads because i pray that they bash you up. You deserve it, i hope you choke and die,

Please, you are making me sick. You are such a sick headed freak of nature. hey, why dont you fly back to austrailia where you belong? oh wait!! you made that one up too! FAKER. since you are so obsessed with identifying fakers on friendster, i shall aid you in finding one really big faker. all you need is a BIG mirror.

And one more, dont speak to me with your foul toungue, you dont even speak grammer right. pucker up, your friends are all like you. Grow up JOWEL

enough of them.


:D today i had prelims. Maths and geography. i must say that i slept through the paper. Tomorrow is my favourite subject!!

CHEMISTRY :DD
calcium silicate.
unburnt hydrocarbons
Alkanes
Alkenes
Organic Chemsitry
Naptha
Please Send Cats Monkeys Zebras In Large Hired Cages Silly,
I Care Because Zahirah Said She Is Caring
Chemical Equations
and my personal favourite;

Purification of substances!!! :DDD

Being a nerd in chemistry is the new black :D


I dont know why im so excited for chem :(
im upset because my body is aching,.

I went home early today, my sis was at home., She looked really sad and she told me about the bully in school. And guess what i did?
I thought her to kick him where it hurts the most, hehe

She should start going to school on blades. D:


-Monsie

Its really hard. To pretend to be the opposite you are feeling inside.
Monsie, smile, please.

You are strong. Endure with his absence. Bestest, i miss you terribly,

The world is so tiny. who knew that the ASH she knows is the sick headed fool

-Monsie

BSSFL

He looked at me, his eyes were watering. That's when I knew that this was about to end .Frozen in that moment, time was standing still And I could feel my heart sinking, fragile

Goodbye, he said
And I gave you every waking moment. I gave you everything you wanted
And now you're giving me up? Why? He walked away and I could hardly breathe. I turned around and fell down to my knees. I'm shivering as the truth is settling. I'm sure tomorrow has nothing to do with me. I remember when you were falling And I was there just holding on to you And I remember all those Scars I wear that you carved in me.



This is a tribute for you bestest. I will most certainly miss you. Thank you for always watching my back. Nobody can ever have the best like i found in you. Thank you. Im sorry i didnt turn up for your farewell. I didnt imagine us separating this quickly. I am really missing you so much, Im alone now but i will be ok.

It all voice down to this.

I hope you will do well with your dad in the states, I hope you will be able to get that male figure back in your life. I hope your mum will be happier with that man and i hope you will learn to forgive your mum and your dad. I will surely miss you. The best person who understands me.

Im sorry i didnt turn up for your farewell. It will be easier for me to forget your face..

Best friend, i will definitely miss you, Im really sorry..

-Monsie

P.S Lets not call you batman, you are not worthy of that name, Low life. God sakes, buncha attention seekers.

Who took my dairy?!!
and who read it?!!

admit it!!


Anyway todays prelims i suck hardcore, seriously like cmon dudette, i was goddamn sleepy.

-___-

jyeeeeaaaahhhhh..

ask me why im speaking like this?

Because Kyle is a hip hopper!!


-Monsie

thats when i realize that i can never mean nothing to you.

-monsie

Disappearing.

Im in a band. D:

"to whom beauty glows"

D:

i love my bandmates


Life just got better.
-Monsie

Disappear

what hurts the most is finding out things that you were not meant to see.

one last thing before i finally end the whole thing
your life is just built with nothing but identifying fakers..

i think you have a OCD for fakers.

-monsie

this is when it has come to a cause.

I HATE YOU.

Chacky and jowel. buncha nobodys. im glad we cut the strings. because one is just trying to be in the scene and the other has build his life out of lies to gain sympathy. \

Dramas.


im healing. and soon i will be ready for school..


-Monsie

Cos from today on, i am invisible

What do you do when going nowhere is no longer an option?
What do you do when you have broken bonds only to find yourself in the same scene all over again?

Somethings cant just be right whenever i try so hard to make it. why is it that it seems alright yesterday only to find myself crumbling down again today? A single mention of your name brings me back to what had happened on Saturday. you are the reason we fought you are the reason i turned violent. Only to find out more. Fuck, i shouldnt keep thoughts about it.

Only to get worst. Back to reality, i lost everyone.

I lost Jacob Black. my bestest and the one i remembered that brings back joy from our childhood days.

I lost Nick jonas, my astronomy buddy

I lost MonsterZir, because of a small heated argument

I lost Batman and Batgirl and chacky, the trio that comes together. Batman i hope you are doing your friday prayers. Batgirl, i hope you are coping well in school. Chacky, please study hard.

I Lost Tyzz, khai and AlyyChaos. we just lost contact.

I lost Fir to that human

I Lost my clique. its breaking apart guys, cant you feel it?

and the 2 most important people in my life.

Vampire and
ZeeqMonster

In the 13th month, i dont feel you no more. your heart belongs to someone else, Either with M or N. but not me. i will try. because from now on, scars is all that i got. so deep that it seems intangible to you. i pray for you to get well soon and i pray that you will find your happiness. because i know, deep down, with you, i mean nothing. Im just a piece of meat.


Im sorry bestest, i disappoint you.


Im sick of the world. heading out tonight. Dont look me up.

Peace out world. I have enough of you

-Monsie

who the hell gives a big fuck about me?! leave me alone!

leave me alone!
Dont ever give a big fuck about me!!


whats next? whats next?!!!

fuck you world! and screw you inside out! i have no time and i dont have any more energy.

seems today, i walked to school alone, that was the longest woalk of my life. with alesana and a skylit drive palying trough my headphones, i cant help but to tear inside. I went home late. i didnt bother looking good, i didnt bother combing my hair right, i didnt bother to wax up my hair. i didnt bother to apply my eyeliner. i didnt bother spraying on my perfume.

today is going to be the most suckiest day of my life!

i went to school i didnt meet vampire at the usual shelter. texted her, no replies.

reached school bus stop saw A and i think her gf. uh what the fuck?! i cant be bothered no more!

reach sec 4 level too caught up in my own world to bother about biometrics. reached classroom, the seat beside me is empty and i know it will stay empty throughout the day.

went down for assembly. devotion was about kites. i remembered the first time i went to the beach with vampire. something i hold on too dearly to ever let go.

fuck mainstream!

thank you world for making my day horrible.

i dint go down for recess because i never did feel the urge to eat.

F texted me. i cant be bothered to reply. im heading out later.


i am so sick of this world!

-monsie

i wanna die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!