Im sorry jake.








a High class kid dont deserve a low class kid like me.

:(

never ever will i ever have that conversation with you again.
-Monsie

What is there left in the world that everyone is chasing after?

Love? Food? Money?

everyone is trying so hard to climb up that social ladder.

the rich neglecting the poor.

the strong oppressing the weak.

The world is going through an economy crisis.

The poor getting poorer

the rich getting richer.

why are people left to starve. and the rich, complain when their food is not enough?

the main point,

STARVATION

next, racism

i heard a really crude joke in the bus today. a whole bunch boys were sitting together and were making fun of their sikh friend`s turban. i felt very upset uh. yeah ok. i mean we are all the same.

next, DO NOT MAKE FUN OF KHAI LAH!!!

mean ass. just because he lones. :(

some people needs more empathy in their hearts. :(

-MonsterGirl

That one clear thing. It strucks my mind.


Lotsa things are happening.


I hate it if any Goddamn whxre ruins My friends life.
i am a protector. I will protect my loved ones to the best of my abilities. like come on bitch, look you are just too hard up for friends, get a life lomo. tsk.

Next, when skating with jacob black. Oh, her eyes are so lovely. so many words can thread this together but not beautiful poetry can ever replace things we shared.


next next, Vampire. OH!! where do i start? everything is stabalizing. meling(tsk) rina (tsktsk) BARBARA?!! who the hell is she?LOL. Look God, im ok! ahah. sometimes, i wished you are not so clumsy!! AHha..

next next next,
i have cravings. STRAWBERRY SUNDAE!




next next next next,
F&N!!
im so left behind. hahaah.
everybody, MONSIE is gonna flop N levels. :(







You should stop pretending to be someone you are not. Look yourself in the mirror for i know you have all the money in the world, all the friends you can have, all the gigs you can go to but, there is one thing we have that you dont. and that is


ORIGINALITY




eff off lomo!

-Monsie

Spirits from the deep
Who never sleep,
Be kind to me.

Spirits from the grave
Without a soul to save,
Be kind to me.

Spirits of the trees
That grow upon the leas,
Be kind to me.


Spirits of the air,
Foul and black,not fair,
Be kind to me,


Water spirits hateful,
To ships and bathers fateful,
Be kind to me.


Spirits of earthbound dead
That glide with noiseless tread,
Be kind to me.


Spirits of heat and fire,
Destructive in your ire,
Be kind to me.


Spirits of cold and ice,
Patrons of crime and vice,
Be kind to me.


Elect of all the devilish hosts!
I pray you send hither,Send hither, send hither,
The great gray shape that makes men shiver!Shiver, shiver, shiver!
Come! Come! Come!
Come, spirit so powerful! Come spirit so dread,From the home of the werewolf, the home of the dead.
Come, give me thy blessing! Come, lend me thine ear!
O spirit of darkness!
Oh spirit so drear!
Come mighty phantom! Come great Unknown!
Come from thy dwelling so gloomy and lone.
Come, I beseech thee; depart from thy lair,And body and soul shall be thine, I declare.

Haste, haste, hast, horrid spirit, haste!
Speed, speed, speed, scaring spirit, speed!
Fast, fast, fast, fateful spirit, fast!
I offer to thee, Great Spirit of the Unknown, this night, my body and soul,
on the condition that thou grantest me, from this night to the hour of my death, the power of metamorphosing, nocturnally, into a wolf.
I beg, I pray, I implore thee - thee, unparalleled Phantom of Darkness, to make me dead.

andHeart, body, and soul, I am yours.
'Tis night! 'Tis night! and the moon shines white
Over pine and snow-capped hill;
The shadows stray through burn and brae
And dance in the sparkling rill.'Tis night! 'Tis night! And the devil's light
Casts glimmering beams around.The maras dance, the nisses prance
On the flower-enamelled ground.'Tis night! 'Tis night! And the werewolf's might
Makes men and nature shiver.Yet its fierce gray head and stealthy tread
Are nought to thee, oh river!
River, river, river.Oh water strong, that swirls along,I prithee a werewolf make me.
Of all things dear, my soul, I swear,In death shall not forsake thee.

AND yes, i miss my werewolf. but i have to give her up. :(

she doesnt need me.

and i willl never forget that night you wore my favourite shade and said

"i need to leave in 5 mins. i need to hunt"

Goodbye

Hello again.Its tuesday.How are you?I haven’t talked to you in a few days.Thats okay.Your voice still rings clear in my head.Its been months.But I still remember :]That night is the clearest one in my memory.The next time I see you we’ll be there again.Tradition, Tradition.I just wish we didn’t have to go through the months.These stupid ritualistic months.Your Smile Keeps Me Up For Days.But you’re still there.In my mind.And I wont let this feeling fade.Its taken me years to admit it fully.I’m ready to now.I Love You.




i miss you. I miss talking to you. i miss our tuesdays. i miss your crude jokes. i miss your piggybacks.
i miss you more now.
i miss staring at you. i miss telling you to shut up. i miss you noggie-ing me.
i miss you SO MUCH.
i miss your weird accent. i miss you messing my hair. i miss you pushing me off my deck.
OH GOD I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
i miss us skating. i miss us learning ollies. I miss us chilling at *scape. I miss us running wild on ramps. i miss your carelessness. i miss you laughing. i miss you being cheeky. i miss your embarassing dares. i miss your foot on mine.









i miss your gigantic foot. ZeeqMonster, I MISS YOU.

-MonsterGril

Sports day is over.
If only they listened.

Anyways after sports day headed down to bugis.
Look im sorry ok, :(
i know i mkaem istakes and that i dont tell you everything. i dont want you to start blaming yourself for everything that is happening between us that`s why i choose to keep quiet about it. :(


I love being over protected by you. :))
i feel so safe. yes. :)


Goodnight. Yesterday, i dremt hardcore.
ahaha. finally holidays are here. time to OCH-Ing again.

Bad ass clan :))))))))))))))))))))))))))



-MonsterGril

Jacob, i wish to hear your husky laughter.
i am so dissapointed in you, dont hurt yourself anymore.
i am still here. is this all my fault? and that you dont need me no more?
im sorry i appeared. i really am. just so you know, i kept your smile in my heart. cos i`ll never forget that smile and that husky laughter. i`ll need it every now and then. and yes, you made a great impact in my life.
bella.

Something really hillarious happened,

i cant stop smiling to myself. haha. ok nvm i wont say. hah



The world has got a funny way of turning down on you, when a friend tries to stab you right in the face, losing hope in every single thing i do, dont sweat it, it was sworn on FALSE PRETENSE. betrayed but im not gonna be willing to change, and it doesnt seem likely to change, did you know? its Sacrifice, False Pretense, you'll learn again. Stop pretending, don't deny.


All along you know you thought you got the best of me. You were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face! I can not believe you claimed you were my friend. Don't sweat it,you set a false pretense



JYEAHHH! finally i got time. :))))))))))))))







To you, i didnt asked you to be on my side, stop trying to prove yourself innocent. you know you had a HUGE role to play in this. You dont have to bitch about them to me, and bitch about me to them. HYPOCRITE. Yes it says it all over your face!

i told it wasnt gonna be easy to do this, and I AM NOT CLEANING UP YOUR SHIT.



-MonsterGirl

CHEER! its over now! :)))) FINALLY FREEDOM!!

the seniors think they can do everything Goddamn well, then do it, surprise me, come out with a new routine in 6 fucking days. and when things screw up, do not look for me, thank you.

Yesterday, got a hell of a scolding from house master for some stupid costume thing i did wrong. seniors, -_- dont ask, he fucking raised his voice at me without letting me explain. sheesh. `sokay im ok. settled things, blah blah blah, moving on.


today, i gave house master a withdrawal letter, and the money that i so called owe the squad. my own hard earned money.


Zeeq asked me why i was doing this, i told him, "Every single Goddamn Fucking thing i do, the seniors always have their say, if the seniors wanna have fun then go ahead i am going to surrender this squad to them. SHE wants it so bad!"



Im really tired of all this sick lies and the backstabbers in this cheer squad thing. I really pity the juniors, they ALWAYS give me their 100% commitment and the seniors dont. now that i am withdrawing myself, i wish them all the best.. i Believe in different things. to me, my aim is the well being of the squad. but my intentions are always being misinterpreted.


Zacky told me that cheerleading isnt meant for me, i am to DARK for it. But haha, my idea of cheer was amazing i must say. since nobody want to hear it, i shall say it here.




Basically our theme this year is higher, stronger and faster. and the first thing that comes to my mind is a legendary bird, the pheonix. The starting part of the song is some mysterious dark kinda music from escape the fate`s this war is ours. and during this part, there will be a black cloth at the back of the performing area, 3 of my cheerleaders will hide behind it and they would stick their hands out of the slits and do some hand movements according to the dark music. 4 of my cheerleaders are "dead" ballerinas that are waitng to be free. and the other 8 cheerleaders will be the mystical creature in black cloaks that will blow glitter onto my ballerinas and free them to dance. i have 8 black cloaks,
1st cloak - thunderbolt
2nd cloak-F
3rd Cloak-E
4th cloak-A
5th cloak-R
6th cloak-O
7th cloak-N
8th cloak-thunderbolt.


so basically after that all my cheerleaders will stop becoming a "pheonix bird" and be CHEERLEADERS.

other factors that will be in this routine, that will outshine the others.
when i got the theme, i spent an entire night trying to figure out a perfect routine, and i did.
this routine is Out of the box and it will revolve people`s mindset of what cheerleading is.

nobody bothered to listen to me.
so now, my juniors are using some BAR TOP DAncing routine.

but whatever, i am washing my hands off. im really glad i did, because i was treated like their dog.


SUPRISE ME SENIORS, LET ME SEE WHAT YOU CAN COME OUT WITH IN 6 GODDAMN DAYS. I WONT BE SURPRISE IF YOU DECIDED TO MAKE DO WITH MY ROUTINE.



juniors, im sorry to hear that you got treated like crap and they are kicking you out one by one. be strong, you have every right to speak up.




I AM SETTING MY FOOT ON THE LINE OF FIRE AND SACRIFICING MY POSITION FOR THE SAKE OF MY SQUAD,

and that`s what the seniors want. they want to be in control. haha. do it! its not easy. dont call me if things screw up, im not cleaning your shit.

with actions, comes responsibility, remeber that seniors.
-MonsterGirl

P.S i am finally hanging out with bad ass clan and we are gona go skating!!




finally, i am free :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD