its all over now.
Thanks heavens its ok.
i have much much better things to to do. im sorry. we are just friends. not as close as sister anymore.
because people just have to misjudge us. sorry, but i have thought about it, i have long went astray and its about time i realize my roots.

-MonsterGirl

i hate camp!

:`(

im gonna die.
imma sucha idiot :`(
You No longer care . :`(
why do you do this? why? ;`(
and i cry every night praying for you to get well.
go on without me
:`(
Thanks




i hate this song, for it was written for you
-MonsterGirl

Balqis, YOU ARE SUCH A TRENDY WENKER!!

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LOCK YOUR BLOG FOR LOMO?!!!

YOU AFRAID NOW?!!!

YOU AND YOU QEE FRIEND SHOULD BE SENT BURNING TO THE VERY DEPTH OF HELL WHERE YOU BELONG!!!


AND GUESS WHAT, I KNOW YOUR FULL NAME,


THINGS ARE GONNA GET UGLY FOR YOU!

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS!


START PRAYING TO GOD AND STOP SWEARING LIKE A PIG!


-_-

KIDS...


-mONSTERgIRL

Balqis and her friend doesnt know who they are dealing with.
you are dealing with a monster. with fangs.
i do voodoo
dont let me find out your full name balqis.
cos i know qee`s full name.
oh gosh, you are so dead qee, so dead..
-MonsterGirl

TUNA SUCKS!



Kids kids, when will they ever grow up?
-_-
i cant be bothered with you anymore.
-_-
im silly, i made assumptions so easily.
and now, zeeq is on the way to bash up that bitch. Dang!
im screwed., may God bless you when zeeq is at it.
-_-
Sara, no dont say anymore, i know terribly its gonna end up a holocaust.
-_-

"Balqis think you suck"
What a self praising person.
she inflates her own ego.
she thinks she lives in this world all by her own.
she thinks everyone sucks except her, -_-
someone please give her a wake up call!
*rolls eyes*

kids,
grow up.
"saaaap y'allzx. i'm Balqis, the one and only original dollkiller in the cyberworld.
i can be mean when i want to but that doesn't mean that im a bitch.
oh yeah, im friendly and i dont bite unless you're a real suck-up ^^v"

*rolls eyes*
so what exactly is you theory of MEAN?

im monsterGirl for a reason, and i live up to that reputation.

You have no idea who you are dealing with kiddo.


here`s an advice,

" Once you put education in your dense brain, then start talking alright."

sometimes it pays to be educated.

-_-


for now, carry your ass and head on home.
what a bummer.
a major turnoff.
-MonsterGirl

no matter how hard i scream,
no matter how high i jump,
no matter how deep i cry,
no matter how much i try,

here`s the truth.
the past is still deep within. i can never let it go. Why? why wont people understand? my past is buried deep within me and its just too deep. i facade it with my smiles. i put it in my heart. like in a drawer. i close it shut and lock it up. i threw away the key. its there, safe. i told myself never to bring it up again. but some things just had me unlocking that drawer and dwelling in my past. no people will never understand. they laugh at me. im the kid who got beaten up and shoved to the corner of the room. im the kid that people laugh at. im the kid who try so hard to be somebody but just can never be one. yup , thats me. i dont blame you for what you have added to that drawer of mine. that drawer needs to be dispose away. far far away where i will never ever find again.



Dear God, i really just wanna lose my memory. i`ve dwelled too much on things that hurt me that i have never seem to realize with what i am blessed with. i am contented. so much. but i cant seem to tel myself that everytime. i wana start anew. with dad, with mum, with my family.
maybe then life wouldnt be all so bad. i wouldnt meet you. you wouldnt meet me. i wouldnt ruined your friendships. i wouldnt create much joke of myself. you wil still be with them. i will still have dad. dear God, if only you will hear my cry. with all this new things you are putting me thru, why?why now? im at my weakest now. i just want things my way for once. please. if i ask too much, you will never give it to me. please God, you are great and mighty. you know how much pain i am in. please, just take me away. bring me to dad. bring me away.



when im gone, i want the world to go on like i never existed. i want people to laugh on my funeral and thank God that im gone. I wont happy music to be played. i want every to be clapping along. but i know, i will never hurt the world when im gone. but i`ll hurt her. so much. so deep. i`ll put her the pain im going through now. i wont put her to that.

Thank you God, I Love You.
I`ll Be the one to suffer. not her.
Thank You God, you have answered my prayers.

Best Birthday Ever! D:
My vampire is the best! ^.^V
haha. so she cooked for me. very sweet. she brought me out. very sweet. she took care of me very very sweet. all of us walked in the rain! Best damn thing. the rest, is for us to know and for you guys never to find out. ^..^

got home, my homies sprise me with a cake! i was like WOAH! but i was too tired to eat it. so they sang me a birthday song. i didnt even blow the candles and make my wished!! My annoying brother blew it! DANG! there goes my wis. P.S i dont really need a wish because i got what i wanted *winks* ^..^


Today,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZEEQMONSTER BSSFL!

i know it doesnt make a difference if i wished you here because i already wished you like a gazzillion times everytime i see you. so it will go like this.

1st minute
MG: OMGOTH! ZEEQ!!
ZM: (in relaxed voice) yea whaddup?
MG: HAPPPY BIRTHDAY SUCKA! *THROWS CAKE ON FACE*
ZM: *shows langgar lorry face*


30th minute
MG: OMGOTH ZEEQ!
ZM: yea monsie?
MG: *in obama`s voice* happy birthday son! and may God bless america!
ZM: Yeah thanks and today is YOur opposite day (inside joke)


next hour
MG: *screaming* ZEEQ!!!!!
ZM: WHOA YEAH?!!
GS: *whispers to monsie* maybe monsie you might wanna quit it now.
MG: *shakes head* Happy birdday! (inside joke)
ZM: i swear monsie, one more time and i`ll *%#@&*^$ you!! (inside joke)
MG: *giggles to self*



4th hour
AR: *winks at monsie*
Z : *nods head*
GS: *gets ready zeeq`s bdae cake*
K & AR: *gets ready and opens door*
MG: EH ZEEQ!!!!
ZM: Yeah monsie. i know i knoow ... happppyy....
GS: *smash zeeq`s head into cake before he could finish his sentence*

Bad ass clan: *carried him into pool and dunked him in*
MG and GS: *eats cake and opened coke can*
MG: i love being his BSSFL.
GS: and why wouldnt you?
MG AND GS: *giggle at the same time*




went home.
some stupid siberian husky chased my cats away and wanted to punce on me. i kicked its nose!
one of my cat climed the tree. it got stucked. i called vampire. she laughed at me -_-
i climbed tree, save nikto, hurt my ankle, got bitten by ants and the splinters poked me. D:
called babe. she helped me. give me suggestions. ahaha! thanks D:



TODAY I HAD FUN.
I SAVED ANIMALS AND HURT SOME TOO. D:

-MonsterGirl

i love my red hair!
Thanks ASH even at times you are such a pain!

i think my head is a little screwed i forgot that 2mrw is my bdae. ahaha
i have been sleeping too long.
but anyway vampire:D texted me so i remebered. she is such a sweetie! And she`s mine! WOAHAHA!!

then kazell textede me. ok dun wanna talk about it. he is just too funny.

-MonsterGirl

I really dont know what to say.
i hate whats going on and i really do.
Sometimes i ask myself, should i just fucking give up?
why is it i let jealousy get the better of me so fucking easily.
its just so frustrating! Why cant i seem to control this little weakness of mine.

im talking to nart PAL. Gosh, i am so glad i met her. someone who truly gives me advice based on her experienced.


Im in camp now. I watched twilight. its ok uh. but i rather the book. stupid ASH! i hate you!!! I wish i could just burn you down to ashes!


I HATE IT WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT HER LIKE THAT! I FUCKING HATE IT!! AND WHEN I FIGHT YOU BACK, YOU FUGLY ASS BEAT ME! WHY?!! WHY DO I ALLOW YOU TO BRUISE ME SO FUCKING EASILY?!I HATE YOU! AND TO THINK THAT I GOT BRUISED UP TO PROTECT YOU AND THERE YOU WERE NOT THERE FOR ME. AM I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH? AM I?! IF IT IS, THEN IM SORRY. I`LL GO! DONT LOOK FOR ME!


SCREW YOU ASH TO THE VERY DEPTH OF HELL!! I HATE YOU!!
WHY DOES EVERYBODY JUST WANNA SEE ME CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


-MonsterGirl

I just gotta say, i have to let you know.

Sometimes i tend to overreact at situations where your feelings are involve. I dont want to break your almost breakable heart. I wish somewhat, you would give me time to explain myself and you wouldnt bottle up everything. This isnt your fault, it really isnt. I hate it when i thought things were really fine and when i viewed your page, i figured out, it wasnt. You were trying to hide everything. Mask it out with your smile, when the truth is that you heart cuts really deep. Why? Why do you do that? And i thought everything was going on fine when you meet me. But i guess it got a whole lot worst. And why do you do that? Why do you bottle up your unhappiness? I told you, i never want that to happen. You know, im really so glad that my prepaid is low. I cant text you but i give you a little space to think it through. The truth is, i hate it when She is involve. I fall for her words so easily. But why wont you get it? I will never let anyone change my thoughts about you. Havent i prove that to you when esmarelda texted me and stuff? Havent i? Why do you keep saying is your fault? I try to protect you when she wanted to hurt you. I suffered. For you. I just want you to be ok. Why wont you trust me? Why do you keep everything inside again? like the last time? Why?



And for all your mother Fucking freinds! If you read this and feel happy because things arent going on well for us, then go ahead! be happy! Thats what all you guys want isnt it?!! You guys broke us up at the first place!! ARGH!! Go, go text her if you want! Try to be nice again if you want! Im sorry i broke your friendship ok!! Now, if you want her back, take her!! take her!!!! make her happy! do it better than me! GOOOOOO!!!! But here`s a warning, if you hurt her agian, imma gonna break your face!! GET ME?!!! IM NOT AFRAID!! MY LIFE IS GONNA END SOON SO I RATHER END IT SEEKING MY REVENGE!!! I FUCKING HATE ALL OF YOU!! EVERY SINGLE ONE ONE OF YOU!! FOR YOU HAVE HURT HER REALLY DEEP!!!



AND YES, THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!




I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW AND I DONT HAVE THE PATIENCE ANYMORE!!

I AM ANGRY!! DEAL WITH THAT!!!!!!



-MonsterGirl

Ugh! i Fucking Hate YOu! why cant you go away?! Go somewhere you are appreciated please. I Have Enough Humanzoids i hate, i dont need you too! Enough! I Hate It If you talk about her like that! i Fucking hate it! She is human too! And so what if she isnt there for me at times? ITS NOT ALL THE FUCKING TIME MIND YOU!!! She is just busy. I understand, and how about you fuckhead?!! I dont need you to comment about what you dont have the rights to BITCH!!! NO! you`re not a bitch! you`re an UGLY BUNG! A FUGLY UGLY BUNG!!! FUCK!!!!!! Enough ok!! i can stand you being anoying, i can stand you beating me, i can stand you hurting me!

BUT I CANT FUCKING STAND YOU IF YOU TALK ABOUT HER LIKE THAT YOU HEAR ME?!!!!!!!!!!!!

so today i started work at macdonalds ang gosh! i hate it! I mean i gotta learn to do fries and then i got scolding from the manager about my hair! ARGHH!! My hair!! and i was so pissed i just tied everything up! Including my tails!! UGHHH!!! Then the stupid lady, work so slow even my grandma can go WAAYYY faster then her! I am just so not in the mood to be patient with any humans now!! ARGGHHH!!


Yesterday, i saw fiend in te mirror when i was combing my hair. she`s a small girl with babe`s hair and really fair complexion. I dint scream. She smiled. So i gave her a nervous grin.



Yes, weird as can be. ugh, right now, i FUCKING HATE ASH!!



-MonsterGirl

Can you legally drink?

* Even if i was legal, i won't drink ah.

Will you be married in the next 2 years?

* uh?.

What are your least favorite school subjects?

* The Juan`s Subject

Do you have a pet?

* Yes i do.

What did you do today?

* Sleep

Do you like potato?

* Uh? .

When was the last time you saw your mom?

* A few Days ago

Do you believe in karma?

* Yes i do.

Are you a social person?

* Err, now not quite uh.

What was the last thing you drank?

* i forgot

What are you doing for your next birthday?

* I don`t Know. I dont celebrate my birthdays

Have you ever sat on a roof?

* Yes.

What are you listening to?

* Something -Escape The Fate

What are you thinking about right now?

* Vampire

Any plans for the weekend?

* Nahh. Too sick to go out.

What time did you get up in the morning?

* Just Woke up

Have you ever been in an ambulance?

* Yes i have.

Do you prefer an ocean or pool?

* ocean

What's bothering you now?

* ASH!

Who's page did you visit last?

* ZeeqMonster`s

Are you a 'LOST' fanatic?

* Nope.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

* Yes, a stuff bat Zeeq Gave me.

Earphones or headphones?

* Earphones

At this very moment what should you be doing?

* Err, resting

Do you read novels often?

* only the twilight series and Vampire kisses

Do you shut off the water while you brush your teeth?

* No.

Are you mad about anything?

* Yes.

Do you sing in the car?

* No.

Have you ever thought you liked someone, and then found out that you really didn't like them?

* Yes. Haha!

Have you ever kissed someone that has smoked weed before?

* Nope.

Do/did you listen to your parents?

* Depends.

Have you ever wanted someone you thought you couldn't have then found out they liked you?

* Yeahhhh. Haha. Guess what? MINE now. Get that? MINEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Do you have any interesting bruises or scars?

* Yes. A scar that reminds me of the past.

Do you think your first love affects the way you go on with life?
* Yes.

[ONE] Who was your last text from?

-Vampire

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?

- you mean friendster? Erm, i dunno

[THREE]Your relationship status?

- ^..^

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?

- Yea. Yukie Shaw

[FIVE] What is your current mood?

- Lost.

[SIX] What's your brother's name?

- Ihsan and Iqbal

[SEVEN ] What's your favorite color(s)?

- black

[EIGHT] Where do you wish you were right now?

- With vampire

[NINE] Have a crazy side?

- Yeah. A really wild and crazy one.

[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?

- yeah. Super scary

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?

-nowadays? Miss Vampire

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?

- Yeah

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like.

-uh?

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?

- a moment ago

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?

- vampire

[SIXTEEN] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?

- vampire

[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

-Zeeq

[EIGHTEEN]

What are your favorite songs?

- right now? "This conversation is over"

[NINETEEN] What are you doing right now?

- looking thru ash`s private photo

[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?

- vampire

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

- Zeeq`s Wardrobe.

[TWENTY-TWO] Have you kissed someone in the past week?

- ^..^

[TWENTY-THREE] What is your lucky number?

- 6 and 13

[TWENTY-FOUR] Who are your friends that are closest to you?

- Clique, Zeeq and Sara

[TWENTY- FIVE] Describe your life in one word?

- Confusing

[TWENTY- SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?

-a drizzle?

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Who are you thinking of right now?

-Vampire

[TWENTY- EIGHT] What should you be doing right now?

-Resting

(TWENTY-NINE)If you could wish for something over a birthday cake right now what would it be?

- Dad

[THIRTY] What are you listening to?

-Something -Escape The Fate

[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?

- Ash

[THIRTY- TWO] Who was the last person who yelled at you?

- ASH!

[THIRTY- THREE] Do you act differently around the person you like?

- Sometimes

[THIRTY- FOUR] What is your natural

hair color?

-black.

[THIRTY-FIVE]Who was the last person to make you laugh?

- ASH

erm thanks ash.










I miss my nuster monster vampire slayer

My uncles and aunties
h

my aunties. and my umi is the one using the gold veil :D


my male cousins. (But i have no clue why the guy in brown is in there. i Dont know him)


Girl cousins. :DDDD






WE ARE PRETTY PEOPLE YO! AND WE ARE SO DAMN FREAKING CLOSE!





BUT IM THE UGLIEST AMONG ALL. THAT DOESNT CHANGE!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

IM AN OBNOXIOUS IDIOT!!




-MONSTERGIRL

NADIRAH IS AN ANNOYING, OBNOXIOUS, SELF CENTRED, HEARTLESS IDIOT!!!

went to changi airport today to fetch Mich and Rini From Hong Kong.
AHaha! Today, Heroine looks just like Jason Mraz. I have to thank the guys at raffles place though for reminding me. It Was My idea for the suspenders. But, she keep saying not nice not nice! ahah! Dress you up was awesome fun today! :DDD As Hot as Jason Mraz, As Sweet as you. :DD

So glad to see met Mich and rini and AJ. I didnt realize how much i have miss them so much. Too bad, cass and babe couldnt make it though. So im tired and i have a swollen eye. i have am sick and so lazy to type. let the pictures define it`s thousand words. Dang! i cant seem to upload my pictures. D:
Oh well i`ll post it in friendster, sara and zeeq im sure you are dying to look at it. ;D

-MonsterGirl

ugh! help! I cant sleep. nightmares again. no one to complain too. Ding dong Rajinder is sleeping!! UGH!! ok ok i tell you what my nightmare is about.

I dreamt that i woke up from sleep then the whole world is empty. So empty. I am the only one living in the world. Then there arent any vehicles. no buses, no cabs, no mrts, not even animals. And then i dreamt this creature, was chasing me. in black. it move so fast like shadows. it was chasing me, it was screaming at me in deep hoarse voice in some alienic languange. And i was screaming HER name. But she didnt come. i ran from Toa Payoh To Admiralty and knock on the door. she wasnt there. No One was at home. the creature manage to catch up with me. It flashed its razor teeth and started tearing off pieces of me. i was screaming in pain. i saw very clearly the blood on the floor; at the footsteps of Her house. i screamed her name. i called her name. but the creature was tearing me apart. and then the creature Transformed. it was Her. She was the creature. The one killing me. I woke up in sweats and i was crying. It felt so real. So real. and the tears, it felt so real. What does it mean? Im afraid. im so afraid. I have the same nightmare since the day you told me, you are going away, but in got worst now when you arent here.


Oh Fiend, i carry you. stop making me have bad dreams about her. please. Oh Fiend, tell me what is it you want from me now? have i not been the sacrifice for my friends sins? Oh clan, please stop this. its killing me.

-MonsterGirl

Did You made that up just as you go?
i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

Why cant you just die uh? Ugh! i hate you and i totally dig it!



Zeeq I wish so awesomely too. Ahhah.

weird weird dreams.. Same dreams over and over again. im gonna sleep now. poison`s taking in.

have you ever felt that you saw the one you love right in front of you and the next moment she`s gone? And you plead and begged for her to stay and you got nowhere? And you suffered at her absence but you felt she didnt cared? You Felt as if life for her had gone on strong even without your presence? So where do you stand? You cried all night in misery and almost went insane, and maybe you asked yourself if she felt the same way too?


On that special day, you never thought you would spent it alone. You plead for her only to feel your surroundings faint. The poison is taking in and as you try so hard to breathe. you cling on to the very memories of her? And You asked yourself " She understands right that i`m not coming back? What if i can never ever smell her soft skin and touch her hair? What if this is really the end? What will she do? Will she move on right on without me?" You suffered. The moment she left. But does she even care? Perhaps. And Perhaps not? Why are you doubting her? Dont you love her? Now ask yourself, is this really the end?




Thanks for accompanying me. for taking me in. for stroking my hair. To fill in the empty space she left. But truly, i only yearn for her. not you. Im sorry.



The panadol is taking in. im feeling faint. I wanna close my eyes now. Goodbye world.



Happy 5th anniversary, im sorry.

Dagna star Choo!!

the number of stars in the universe can never compare to the One just like you
:DD

ARGH! Some people cant stop pissing me off. i suggest you shove your gag bag up your arse and we`ll see who will be laughing at you next. D:


A Twisted Fairytale

"Have You ever fallen in love?
but you knew they did not care?
Have you ever felt like crying?
but you know you`ll get nowhere?
Have you ever watched them walk away?
Not wanting them to go?
And whispered "I LOATH YOU" softly
not wanting them to know?"


Conscience you cried all night in misery
and almost when insane.
To hell you go, Forget my beauty
and leave me in solemn serenity!


So hear this please i crave for you
hear my cries its the only thing i can do.
Listen here, we`ll start anew.
Twisted and painful, like when i first met you.

Conscience you moan alone in dismay
filthy roses for you and maybe i shall stay
Your cradle rot as you decay, made me content as i break the chain
One last kiss, lips splutter with stain! (Gothic screams)


"Clueless by my own existence
Overwhelm by fear, to be traumatize by the beauty of death
I silently creep out from my fear
Knowing that you still need me"


"And I`ll make you a promise in return.
I promise that this will be the last you`ll ever hear from me.
i wont come back.
I wont put you through anything like this again.
You can go on with your lives without any more interference from me.
it will be like i never existed.
Goodbye World"

i feel so violated. im sorry.
you know, you are really good at this game i dont want to play.
Nobody is making your lame story longer.
you started this twisted fairytale, you end it.


Im craving for popcorn. :(


-monstergirl

Bad ass clan,
please do not tag her blog.
why do you wanna fucking waste time?!!
We talked about this didnt we!!
Now stop!!

Dear God, i hope next year you give all the mother fucking jackass a bigger brain with a higher level of MATURITY. Bless them with a HUMBLE heart and also A TOUNGE LESS ACIDIC.
And God, please Teach Them a lesson they will never forget, for they have scarred US DEEP.
God, Especially for the BIGGEST MOTHER FUCKING BITCH i hate, bless her with double of what you give to others. (she Needs it more)








Frankly fool, i dont give a Goddamn about what you wana do.
Cos to me, you are nothing.
You have no idea how much i Hate you.
You arent worthy for me being nice to you.
I`ll show you who`s nastier.
you are such a sad case,
You`re a Rich Girl but nobody invest you in manners.
Sooner or Later, ppl will get sick and tired of you, just you wait and see.
And i`ll say " You get what you deserve"

IN YOUR FACE!!










Soon after maths shitty stuff im gonna get red, faded blue, and blonde green highlights!!
Cant wait cant wait.

THANKS AL,
i seek comfort in you..

and SHANE,
Its time we hit the skatepark!
;DDD

-MonsterGirl

No Matter how nice you try to be,
I will always see you in a different light.
A light Full of lies.
You Own an acid Tongue.
I wont Forget the things you said before,
Your words are like blades.
Just Because you look Innocent,
That Doesnt make you an angel.
Just so you know, even if the whole world Thinks you are a pleasant Girl,
Only I Shall Not be naive to your Lies and false pretense,
How far will you go?
I shall wait and see.
"One Day, Im Gonna slap You If I Think You are Much More Annoying than i expect you to be?"
Who the Fuck Do you think you are?!!
Just Because you have a position, that doesnt give you every right to make such threats.
How sad, Rich Girl, But too bad nobody invest you in manners.
For now,
TO HELL WITH YOU !



WHOOOOOOOO!!
Halloween is coming!
Zeeq BSSFL is throwing a HUGE Party at the OCH!
And the best part is, this time, Zeeq is throwing invites to Clique, heroine and Gee (:

Its gonna be The Scariest party because

1. His inviting 44 People
2. Bad ass clan is made up of scary people
3. Its at the OCH
4. Its from 0000Hrs to dawn
5. Its on a friday night
6. Sara is bringing 6 black cats
7. We1re doing it illegally
8. No adult supervision
9. Someone might get a back bite
10. And its in conjuction to Thier return.

:DDDD
I bet it`ll be the SPOOKIEST HALLOWEEN any homos will attend to.

Cant wait for gummy eyeballs
and Zacky`s Specialty "BloodRed Mealworms Milkshake"
YEA!! And we`re gonna PARTY ALL NIGHT LONG!



P.S
Sorry AL about the incident earlier this morning D:
Zeeq Thought me Good


-MonsterGirl