have you ever felt that you saw the one you love right in front of you and the next moment she`s gone? And you plead and begged for her to stay and you got nowhere? And you suffered at her absence but you felt she didnt cared? You Felt as if life for her had gone on strong even without your presence? So where do you stand? You cried all night in misery and almost went insane, and maybe you asked yourself if she felt the same way too?


On that special day, you never thought you would spent it alone. You plead for her only to feel your surroundings faint. The poison is taking in and as you try so hard to breathe. you cling on to the very memories of her? And You asked yourself " She understands right that i`m not coming back? What if i can never ever smell her soft skin and touch her hair? What if this is really the end? What will she do? Will she move on right on without me?" You suffered. The moment she left. But does she even care? Perhaps. And Perhaps not? Why are you doubting her? Dont you love her? Now ask yourself, is this really the end?




Thanks for accompanying me. for taking me in. for stroking my hair. To fill in the empty space she left. But truly, i only yearn for her. not you. Im sorry.



The panadol is taking in. im feeling faint. I wanna close my eyes now. Goodbye world.



Happy 5th anniversary, im sorry.