shhesh ninja! Today was one bad ass day. Ok so letmme write it down to remeber what hell of a day i got from ninja bad ass today. ok so it started out this morning. i came to school t 6 to practice for racial harmony sweet ass thang. But guess what? no one was dere at 6! They were late! sheesh! i dint even slp well last night. i wasnt feeling goddman well too! so practice, blah blah blah. was pissed in the morning until i saw her. OMG la! i was so happy after talking to her in the morning. Ha! Seriously, someone worthe smiling for :) . so after i saw her in the canteen in the morning, i blushed all the way lah. ding dong sahidah still can state the obvious that i was blushing! hee haha. so yea.



during the performance, we were second to perform. CRAP! i saw the dong dong cheng, i lost my steps already. i was laughing on stage ah! saying "what the hell are we doing mariah?!!" yea. so screwed that part. Now i noe why dance is not my cca! so anyway, it was damn funny at the fort minor part. lynette forgot her lyrics. den mariah and i at the back were like doing some mini moshpit without the agrresion. hah! like MUSTANGS!!


chemistry was *dreamy. i wasnt paying attention. i saw miss siti in a new ray of darkness. filled with hate and aggresion. she was slurring her words. i was thinking of ways to kill her.

Maths was sucky. i had terrible pain in the head. yea. but felt a whole lot relief that she was sitting beside me D:


But she kinda like say something to me that kinda hurt ah. but yea, im fine. i guess.



i cant handle the amount of fakes in here.


went home. talked to BSSFL. talked about school at what hurt the most. Suprisingly, even BSSFL, cant cheer me up on that one. Sorry man, i know you are reading this. So decided to vent it out with a new scar. (this is the part where you are suppose to scream)


Not even Magadeth blasting from the stereo made me feel a whole lot shit ass better.

maybe Alesana helped. Sweetheart, you are sadly mistaken. The screamo made me cry. Dang! but not cradle of filth. it dint help me much.


2dae, i learned something, nvr to acknowledge her infront of the girl that likes her. Cos den, her whole clan will stare at you. And HER, will ignore you. This Bastards. Now, i realize the amount of fakes in school are increasing at the number of their Bitch personality. Fakes! Get a Freaking hobby and stop pretending to be someone you`re not! I see you in a new ray of darkness now. One that is filled with my hatred that burns and bruises your stare deep.



-Monster Girl-

feeling poignant