Yesterday was hell of a fuction. I didnt go for religious class because Ain society had a function at pan pacific hotel. I was suppose to be there at 10am for the briefing but i was shagged and when around 12. Uhoh.



I was rushing there and i was so fucking annoyed. I have to walk fast in a stupid body hugging SIA uniform look alike that only allowed me to make small steps. And i have to wear 5 inch heels! Uh. And this stupid people look at me like as if i really am an air steward. Im not! And i dont plan to! I had to bun my Goddamn hair and to make it worst, i have to pin up my bangs!


yes! I was upset.




I wanted to eat but i didnt at last cos i scared the hotel buffet will let me put on weight and then can see my fats. So unglam. Tsk. Around 2+ kak faezah gave me my duty. I was to usher people to the pacific ballroom from the entrance nearest to the ocean ballroom. I was like fuck you man. I mean cmon man nobody will enter from that entrance because that isnt the main entrance! So she did make me go up. And guess what? I was right! There really isnt anyone to usher. So fuck it man i cnt be bothered! And then *zeeeep* vibration. I got msg. Guess from who? Joshua Adams! Hahah. He ask me why i never turn Up for religious class. So alas, i spent my time texting adams. So around 4+ i went down to the pacific ballroom and kak faezah told me to get ready for The flower part. Ok so here was the instructions given, i was supposed to give the flowers to all the mothers who have a red tag on them. And then i was suppose to take an artiste and usher them down to the stage to collect donations. Ok, instructions already registered in my head.




At 4.15, was the cue, i went in with the others and gave the flowers. And then there was this lady who was also a mother but she dint received the red tag because the stupid people at the registration dint give her the tag. So i gave her the flower. And then my superior stare at me like one kind. I was so annoyed i just did what i know is right. And then i was suppose to go on stage with the others to usher the artiste down. And Goddamnit man! Some stupid dingo took my donation box becos he wanted to talk to the artiste. I think her name is rozita hussein. So i was so fucked up i let him be and i walked away. Ah fuck la. Your problem! Im not so hard up with this stupid artistes anyway!

And then it came to the auctioning part. They were auctioning sworvaski crystal neckalace for a thousand. And some stupid dongo bought it for a thousand one hundred for his wife. It was so hillarious. how can you compare your love with money? It was tottally ridiculous.


It came to the end and there was some totally unecessary singing and this down syndrome kid was dancing. Everyone was laughing at him and calling him an entertainment. my brother was the photographer for that event and he stared at me from the other end of the ballroom. And then i shook my head too. It was very mean to do that. He is suffering from down syndrome and he is making a fool out of himself and everyone was entertained by his foolisheness. Heartless! Heartless creatures!



After the whole event they had another buffet for the volunteers to eat. Ah fuck it man! All the fucking MC members of ain and the president took the whole table with the staff. And then got no space for us. And then the stupid ceo of Ain still can ask us to eat. Cmon man, he didnt invite us for us to eat, there was clearly no space. He just invited us for him to feel good. Fuck you! Then the volunteers when up to the ocean ballroom and ate some stupid nasi sambal goreng in the bungkus that was already going to basi. nvm i still syukur got food.




The thing i cant accept the most is why my mum didnt receive the volunteer award and why kak zai mum did. Wahlau fuck all of you man! Kak zai's mum only cook for us. And she only went to hong kong once with them to cook. My mum started cooking for kem perkasa and went to hong kong to cook even before that lady!!! Ah and the people there call her umi and they also call my mum umi! Fuck la! Damn ridiculous!


and there is this political conflict among the volunteers. There are two set of youth volunteers. One is volunteers like me who are schooling and help out with Ain's event and the other one is the out of school youths. (OSY) this ppl are the ones who were ex gangsters and got thrown out by school and mendaki pick them up and give Ain society the right to give them education. And mendaki pay Ain 1k per student every year and that is how Ain get the money! So what? This ppl are your income. But us? We are your manpower. And we are volunteering our time just to be treated like shit!

This is not right! I am the secetary in this youth organization and i am goiing to have a word with the chairman, rifaie and the vice chairman, asyraf. We have to fight back what iis rightfully ours. We were the ones who build up Ain, not them! And they get treated better? We build up Kem perkasa with our sweat and tears. Not them. They just joined us! Fuck you! Fuck all of you!


In this world, there is alot of political issues. Lotsa propaganda and lots of money talk. Do you really think that this organisation is set up to take up th matters of the needy in their hearts? No! Thats all bullshit! all set up by government. Think about it this way, do you really think that the mas selamat case is true? Ha! Thats a lie! Fuck you government! All you ever want is money money money!!! Our gst is seven percent that means we have alot of money with you then why is it that we are the first country to fall into recession? Why is it your pay is still 20k a month? Why do you need fancy cars? Why do you need bodyguards? Why are you spending money on unecessary things like the IR? Why not do your job and help the people and stop trying to draw in revenue from tourisM! So what if singapore got alot of money but the people dont benefit from it?!!



fuck!! I am so pissed now because everything in this world now is all about themselves. Its no longer about love. There is no more love in this world. Every day i pray to God to let me be the one to change the world. I dont know how but let me be more than obama! Hear me! Let me speak! Mother nature is dying because of greedy humans.





Ah fuck Ain! You made umi cry. Yesterday, we volunteers never felt welcome at all! Not even a single thank you or a sign of gratitude from you guys!!!



May Allah teach you all a lesson for ill treating the orphans and the widowed. And for ill treating the volunteers who had love and compassion in their hearts. Amin