i rembered how we used to love each other's company. how we yearn for school to end early so we can run down to serene to get ice cream :) how we often get into trouble for hanging out at the "spa lady's" shop. How we manage to be there for one another. how we hang out almost every saturday. how we gossip about the littlest things. how we shared magazines for fashion tips, how we love to talk about dressing up and make up. How we spent recess talking about mangoes. how we love giving each other tips to hit on that guy. how we always bitch about sucky teachers. how we always sleep in geog. how much we hated miss siti. how much we learn to love her afterword. I Used to come early for school only to see all of you talking about the day ahead, and your plans. how i love all of you so much, i guess now things are different.
Sometimes i wonder if all this is my fault, if i should be put to blame.
one of us feels that she can no longer get along with us, she cut the string that ind us together, she chose rather to hang out with the boys.
one of us feels that she has changed, she has grown more mature. she listens to hardcore, and changing herself into someone we hardly recognize (maybe its just me)
And the rest of us find flaws in each other just to support the decision of leaving. because that is what it feels like now.
i know that everyone is trying to mellow the squabbles down but it doesnt seem to work that way. that day when i met all of you in town, i am suprised to feel that somehow a particular one of you just doesnt like me around. and thats why i left. im sorry babes but i really felt no need at all stayin in when wherever i wish to be, i was out.
and i am particularly sorry AJ, im sorry i let you down.
i wish somehow we will all be back to where we were.
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