Gosh, i feel so uneasy.. Something is not right..


ANGEL____

I`m sitting here,
Realizing my fear,
What im really afraid,
is to be shot dead.

Not with fancy bullets,
not by the billiards
with the truth it seems,
it was just dreams.

Dear God, Hear me cry,
This tears are longing to dry.
Why Give me the harsh reality?
I rather live in my fantasy!!

Please Everyone just leave me,
let my thoughts run free.
Leave me like how she manage to,
i can never pull this through.

You were all i ever wanted,
You were all i ever needed,
Leaving me in agony,
Wont you rather kill me??

Oh please realize,
You broke your promise twice.
Why do i keep dreaming,
That things are not changing?

Make me this way,
You threw me away.
I was left to suffer
paid the price of what i once desire


This sufferings are too painful,
why cant you stay truthful?
Why let them change your thinking?
Why let them control your feelings?

No you dont feel this pain,
Why do you treat this like a game?
You know very well you were everything.
Thank you for making me realize, i was only dreaming.

Yes, For now i know,
It was all a show,
Im Nobody, to deserve lovely you,
It was too good to be true.

uhhhhhhhh.. went to bugis today. it doesnt fit man!
UGH!! anyway, yah. school was... Different..
Everytime i dream she met in a disaster, she never turns out for school the next day.
Ouh God, you do know i dont hate her. You do know i still care for her. You took her away, like what you did. But please shower her with your blessings God. Heal her of all the pain she`s in. Let me be the one to suffer the struggles. Let it be me, She doesnt deserve to be in pain. I Do, Cause i was the cause of all her problems. It was me! ME ME ME!!


xoxo